Couldn't of said it better myself.

clownstastefuny0 (5:46:09 PM): you're undecided and you make a lot of descions based on impulses and that usually leads you to get bored of what your doing and change your lifestyle often.


it's so true. i get so bored cause i never know what i want. but i know what i want now. i loved going to highschool/collegeat CSN. i love living in las vegas and all of my friends there. im going back. for sure. 100%. washington is NOT for me. i dont mind visiting up here but i cant live here for any length of time. this place is eating me alive. goodbye 425, hello 702.

Paradox.

"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

"We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often."

"We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things."

"We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less."

"These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever."

"Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you"

"Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again."

"Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind."

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

About Erika

I find it amusing when I take a bag of popcorn out of the microwave and a few kernels pop while the bag is still in my hands.
I don’t understand people who feel they need to make a religious, political, or social statements via bumper-sticker or window-decal.
I don’t like the smell of Wal-mart.
I also don’t like the smell of PAM when it starts to cook in a pan. I gag.
I avoid using public bathrooms whenever possible.
It is impossible for me to finish an entire water bottle.
Growing up in Vegas, I don’t understand the concept of “mold” here in Washington.
I lived the first 7 years of my life on an Indian Reservation.
I always wear flip-flops unless forced to do otherwise.
I am allergic to the world. Seriously don’t even get me started or I might start sneezing.
I always have some sort of glitter on my face.
I sing really loud in the car, but not in the shower. I have a feeling it’s because I can turn the music up in the car to drown out my singing, which is not possible considering the acoustics of a shower.
I usually sleep with socks on.
I usually sleep with makeup on too, which I hate, but when I get tired and lay down, I’m usually too lazy to get back up and wash my face. I’d rather wait until morning.
I am ALWAYS cold in Washington. I have 5 heaters in my apartment and a heat pad.
I cringe when people repeat themselves in conversation. (ie: “If only I had another chance.. If only I have another chance..) Once is enough, stop being so dramatic.
I live in my own apartment, by myself, in Everett, Washington.
I can’t drink warm water, and my water of choice if VOSS.
Most of the time I hang up my phone without actually saying goodbye. Sorry, but that takes precious time I just don’t have. I’m sort of a big deal.
Vegas is where I grew up, and one of my favorite place in the world; I miss it dearly.
I strongly feel that an adequate amount of English should be known as a prerequisite for living in this country.
People that loudly use blue-tooth headsets in public are annoying.
I don’t do roller-coasters.
Driving in snow is an enormous threat to me and everyone else on the road.
I almost never remember my dreams for more than an hour after I wake up.
I don’t like people who have “ring-back” tones.
It irritates me to no end when parents do not control their chaotic children in public places.
I absolutely can’t stand people who drive slowly in front of me. I’m not racist, but if you do it, you’re probably Asian.
I am definitely NOT a morning person. I consider anytime before noon to be the “morning”.
I’ve never had a nosebleed in my life. Okay once, but it was forced. I got smacked in the face with a block at daycare.
I like dressing up for formal and semi-formal events. I grew up in Vegas, first class is a must.
I’m always [with good reason] overly polite to people that handle my food, especially at fast-food establishments.
Fall is my favorite season, for both the weather and the required clothing.
I am often mocked for having “guys” handwriting. I’m over it.
I think I eat breakfast foods more at night than in the morning.
I HATE turning on the shower when I still have clothes on and getting my sleeves wet. It makes me extremely uncomfortable.
I want to learn to play the piano, and re-learn the violin.
I don’t see the point in chewing fruity gum.
I would drop everything and marry Jude Law with no hesitation if the opportunity presents itself.
I feel naked without my cell phone. (I also feel naked without my clothes)
I overuse Chap Stick, Burt’s Bees being my product of choice.
I’ve never been in a real car accident. I’ve done 360 degree spins and fish tails down the freeway on ice, but that’s hardly an accident.
I love the sun, hate the wind, and am indifferent about the rain.
I think T-Shirts with clever or witty one-liners are overrated and are worn by people who think they are comedians.
My favorite dessert is ice-cream.
I send/receive 200-300 text messages a day.
I always obey the “10 Items or Less” rule of the speedy checkout line, and despise those that ignore it.
I’m 5′ 7″, 115 lbs, and wear a 8 size shoe.
I look in every mirror I pass, almost as a reflex. When you look this good, why pass up an opportunity?
I love the beach.
I don’t use gel in my hair, I use wax and a small amount of hair spray.
I think boys with European accents are incredible.

Knock Knock. Who's there? Me, I kill you.

I did not start this morning out right. So here's the deal. I had my own phone plan. And ryan had his own phone plan. Both T-mobile. Then my roommate ended up wanting T-mobile so I was like hey you both can just go on my plan so it'll be cheaper for everyone. So us three had a plan together. To make a long story short, my roommate ended up moving out a few days ago and then went and started a new phone plan entirely!! So here I am with another line on my plan that isn't being used so I have to either pay for that line every month or cancel it. Cancellation fee is 200 dollars that I DONT have. Or to pay for the line is 60 every month. Fuck my life right now, seriously. So irritating. I'll get it all figured out, hopefully. Haha. Merry Christmas Erika. Not. I wrapped all the presents I'm sending to Vegas last night. I'll probably put them in the mail today (= But that might need to wait a few days because I'd rather not take my car iceskating on the roads today. I want to stay inside and be warm. Uhhh...... I am so mad, I need a massage.

Begin to fade.

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

I am now ready to marry him.

Yes, You know who I am talking about. EDWARD CULLEN. I fell into the Twilight hole... along with every other teeny bopper in the world. But I'm okay with that. I finished the first book yesterday and I am going to buy the second book, New Moon, from Barnes and Noble today. How convinient it is that there is a Barnes and Noble in the mall I work at. (= It's so weird reading this book because it takes place in Forks. For a lot of people, Forks is a mystery place. But when I first moved to Washington with my parents, I lived just 45 minutes away from Forks, in Sequim. So trust me, that weather they talk about, it's real. Haha. And trust me again, there are no guys there. Seriously, don't go there looking for a guy, it won't happen. Anyway, I am going to go tanning. And then pick up my book, work at 4, and then 2 days off. Yesterday was moms birthday! Tomorrow, Ryans band has a show at the Redmond Firehouse. And then Saturday Ryan and I are doing to Christmas shopping, running errands, and then going to meet my whole family in Seattle for dinner at the Spaghetti Factory. Yum. Well I should go do something productive with my day. Maybe? I don't really even know what to do around here that would be productive but I'm sure I can find something. Maybe cleaning my apartment? Nah. Go on a jog? Too cold. Grocery shopping? Don't like going alone. Give me some ideas! I'm rambling. I must be out of my mind. OH! I hada crazy weird dream last night. You don't even want to know. Really. Let's just say it involved violins, mcdonalds, and my dear friend Dan. Yeah? Okay. Goodbye.

Holidays.

I meant to post this on Halloween.

"It's strange the way the holidays can be the hardest days. When you don't feel much like celebrating the thing that the rest of the world seems to be celebrating, that's not a lot of fun. And if whatever everyone else is celebrating happens to be (connected to) something that's broken in your life, that can be some really hard stuff. We know that today is a tough day for a lot of you. Forgive me for saying what I said last year, but I think we got it right so i'm gonna say it again: For people in pain, there's just not that much fun in fear or blood or death on Halloween. I just wanted to take a minute to say that if tonight is a tough one for you, you're not alone. It doesn't make you strange or weak. It's okay to ignore this so-called holiday. Spend tonight with a friend, read a good book, find a song you love... it's okay. This will pass.

Yeah, I still believe that. We still believe that. We're not afraid to say the things nobody says. To place hope in surprising places. We want to be a brave safe place.That's all for that. Whatever you do, be safe tonight. Spend it with a friend. Smile at the pumpkins and do your best to laugh at the wind. It's gonna be okay."

Thank You.

"You should dance."



Three simple words.
That meant so much to me;
Thank you.

Lazy Tuesday

Finally a day off. Sort-of. I have to work tonight 6 to 11, but I got to sleep in so I feel like it's a day off. I've been happier lately. I was always sad and angry because I had to leave all of my friends back home but i have made some good friends here. Cassandra, my cute roomie. Brandon, my new best friend. He's an animal. Reuben! My absolute favorite. Oh gosh you have to know this guy, haha. Jake, my anti-asian, asian. Josh freaking Heitzman. We have way too many inside jokes for our own good. Becky! His precious girlfriend. Keirsten, one of the sweetest girls I've met here! And of course, Jon, Ethan, Rachel, Austin, Krissi, Jordan, Bryn, Luke, Anthony, Lauren, Janae, and there is probably more. I am going home tomorrow for 2 days to spend Thanksgiving with my family in Sequim. COOL. Haha that town is retarded I swear. Well I'm off to be cliche and read more Twilight, haha. Oh by the way, I am tan now! YES! 3 points for Erika!

Patience and Grace.

So as I was sitting in the back room on my lunch break at work today and my phone starts vibrating. It's mom. I answer, and this is what I hear...

"Hi honey, I have a story for you. I went down to the grocery store today to get a few things and when I got in line to pay, there was a woman in front of me, about my same age, and in front of here was an elderly woman about 80. They elderly lady had just a few groceries in a small bag and she was frantically looking through her purse. The man behind the counter was huffing and puffing. The lady was shaking as she searched through her purse. Finally the lady my age who was behind the elderly lady turned to me and said, "You might want to go to another line. She can't find her debit card." She said this with a very rude and annoyed tone in her voice.
I looked at the ladies groceries and knew it couldn't be that much money so I asked the checker, "How much is it?" The man looked at me in shock and said "Uh... 15 dollars" So, I took my credit card out and swiped it. The little old ladies face lit up and she said to me"I can't thank you enough. Please tell me your name and let me pay you back. I got robbed last night and I think they must of taken my Debit Card. I only needed these few things and I have to get to the hospital. One of the robbers hurt me." As she said this, she lifted up her skirt to reveal a large brown and purple bruise on her thigh. "They kicked me and took a great deal of stuff from my house." The man behind the counter and the rude woman behind the elderly lady just stood there in shock. I hope they learned their lesson."



Always love.

Fourty Six? Really?

Well here I am. It has been a rough past few months and writing always helps me get my feelings out. As a lot of my friends know, I moved to Washington. You remember me talking about it so much when I lived in Vegas. "I was born in Seattle, so it's my real home... I want to go back." Well now that I'm back, I want nothing more but to be back in Vegas. I miss my friends and all of the crazy adventures we had. I miss the HEAT and I miss the sun. I can't even remember the last time I saw the sun. I guess I really took advantage of seeing the sun every single morning when I woke up. Oh, and about the title of this blog.... fourty six. Just guess what I'm referring to? Yeah. The freaking temperature right now. Dear Lord get me out of the arctic. At least I have work to keep me busy. I'm working at American Apparel and Hollister. It's fun. And I'm thankful for each of my jobs having a heater. Anyway, I have 20 mins before I need to go to work so I think I'll go do something productive? Maybe? I started reading Twilight. I'm only a chapter in and I'm already obsessed. I hear the movie isn't as good though, so good thing I bought the book. I need to go tan today after work. Yeah. And get my nails done. And get highlights and a trim please? Shit.