Thursday, May 7, 2009

Jesus, help me.

For everyone who really knows me, you know what I went through for about a year and a half during my senior year of high school and starting college. The panic attacks that ruled my life and everyone in it. I was so much better. Until a few days ago. I started a new medication for my asthma on April 4th. It helped at first, but now it has turned into my worst nightmare. I got laryngitis a week ago, and haven't gotten better. I wake up in the middle of the night, shaking, dizzy, and lost. I thought it was just because I was sick, but it wasn't. My attacks came back. I am in that same mind set that consumes my world and leaves me breathless. Paramedics had to spend some time at my apartment 2 nights ago, that was bad enough. But today got worse.

So much worse.

My mom is flying into Seattle from Las Vegas tomorrow morning.
I have the best mother in the world.
I will be gone for a while, I need to get better.
Help me Jesus, please. My life is in your hands, take care of me Father.
"a woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man has to seek Him first to find her."